gloomy~

before this aku penah nanges di sini. tmpt aku sendiri.masa adam break dgn aku, dan kali ni mslah aku sendiri ------->> maybe..

aku tgh sedih. andai ini bkn cahaya yg aku cari, di mane cahaya aku itu? tunjukkan lah!....

kecewa~

hari ni, saya sgt kecewa dgn diri saya. sy tak tau nk nanges, atau biarkan saja berlaku. sbb hati sy kering. dgn kata lain, suke buat bodo. pdhal sy tak bodo. cuma, impression sy tu sukar nk ditonjolkan. mungkin, sbb byk sgt perkara buruk yg berlaku kt sy, sy jd hati kering. bile hati sy kering, setgh org tak selesa dgn perangai sy. sy buat bodo sbb sy taknak drag things. klo sy marah, sy prefer buat bodo. sbb nnt sy akan cure sendiri ---->> (sy blaja ni dr exbf sy la ni). klo nk marah, jgn marah dgn org tu. juz diam,dan ia akan reda sendiri. tp ada setgh org tak selesa dgn gaya sy ni.. hurm..mcm mane ntah sy nk buat. hingga sy telah menaikkan limit kesabaran die atas sbb tahap buat bodoh sy ni.. sy malas nk drag2 dan gado2. tp setgh org, suke bertengkar2 dlu, baru nk selesai perkara. tp mslahnye, dah bertengkar2, perkara tak selesai lg, ape kes? adeh la... even its getting worst. mcm mane nih?sy tak pasti sbb kdg2 mulut sy kate, okey.. jom proceed. tp hati sy sebenarnye berat sgt nk buat.. sbb sy ni depending org nye. even nmpk keras dan kasar, tp sy seorang yg lembut... (hek2..tipu kah?)

-->>(otak beku sbb suhu di pej ketika ini mencecah tahap beku kepala)

sy sbnarnye tak dpt nk defend diri sy sendiri klo kena dgn orgnye. sy jd, 'tak tau nk ckp ape'.. sbb ade jgk org yg keje die nk menang je.. sy letih layan org mcm ni. tu sbb sy ignore je. knp ade org mcm tu, dan knp ade org perangai mcm sy ni? hoho... klo tak, takde la ayat mcm2 ragam manusia. so nk tak nak, kena tahan je la.. klo tak tahan, dok dlm bilik diam2... hoho...

okey lah.. ape pun yg terjadi, kite redha ye... insya'allah~
jgn mengharapkan org lain berubah, jika diri sendiri tidak mampu mengubahnya..

im a wife~

late posted huh~ sedang kawan2 sonok nk buat blog, tetibe teringtkan blog aku yg dah lapuk nih... tak lapuk juge.. last posted, nov last year. haha.. since getting married, mmg lembap je nk menaip. coz, my hubby said, don't get paranoid with blogging coz there is some issues that you dont want to expose to public, but suddenly you exposed it coz u ar getting paranoid with blogging. so,nk blogging ni amek masa jugak lah nk pikir ape yg nk ditaip dan dikongsi. takut salah kongsi hal yg terlalu peribadi hingga menguris hati org len especially my husband..

so, 2010 gives me lots of stories.. n in 2010, i end up my single life n being Aca's wife. well, most of the story in my blog related to him. syukur alhamdulillah, finally, i've found someone that will take care me. i dont want to think how long he could take care of me, look for me, be with me.. i juz want to cherish dis moments with him, as the time always on me & him..~ my wedding was perfect. for me.. i'm happy. being with friends.. dress up beautifully in my wedding dress. makeup~ taking pictures~posed~n posed~ some how, marriage is not juz means me n u.. it's means family. n family, sumtimes its harder than u thought.

everything was okey.. n so far, we lived as husband n wife. well, gaduh2, kdg2 ada. it's complete dowh.. life's full of drama. yes it is.. haha... even my hubby told me too. 'ayg ni penuh drama'.. WTF? sudah tiba masa PMS sy. even kami sudah kawen, we both still dont know each other well.. gegege. ok,cerita dlm kain takmo kasi korang baca.

and my work life~ SUCKS!!! i'm getting tired with the enviroment.. dowh..even i can senang lenang kangkung dok atas kerusi smbil FB.. but, i need new style of work. maybe, not in this building anymore.. but, right now, juz enjoy the moment.

friends? im getting worst in social networking. haha.. well, i think i wanna make new friends. but, i dont know.. maybe, at new enviroment? hoho...

babys?.................................. i live it with question mark. see ya then coz i have no idea right now.