oh..bakal besan aku dah dpt baby..

alhamdulillah.. syukur kepada Tuhan. akhirnya ain dah dpt baby boy - muhammad danial - . wah, aku yg sibuk nk dpt bby boy, die plak yg dpt dulu. ni yg kena bikin baby girl ni. hek2.. tp aku nk bby boy dulu gak. haha..mcm blh bikin je dpn mata. sume tu kejadian dalaman. tak tau mane satu yg lekat. bertambah la lagi populasi rakyat malaysia. haha... sebulan jgk ar die tak pose nih. psl darah nifas tak kering. amek masa sebulan jgk tuh. huhu..selamat ganti pose la ye mama ain.

dis week takde ape kot nk story. aku tgh sibuk nk ganti pose. dah nk dekat pose baru lah nk ganti. selama ni tak reti nk ganti. pastu plak, btm buat kursus kt bilik latihan. maka dengan itu, ade lah mkn2 di bilik latihan itu. dan bilik latihan itu adalah dekat dgn bilik aku. apabila tiap2 kali caterer ni datang bwk lunch, lalu hidung aku cepat menangkap bau-bauan yg harum menusuk kalbu. mengetar jiwa raga ku. oh No, tutup pintu, tido. lega dpt lupe kan kejap bau masakan tuh. aku slalu sgt dpt bau ayam masak merah. tp semlm, dah dpt mkn satu. kak nor bg sebungkus. rezeki2.. tghari td, caterer tu blh plak masak sambal udang petai. demmm! balik umh, ibu pun masak petai dgn udang. WOW... sonoknye.. mmg rezeki lah. syukur2.. esok dah gaji. urm..mcm nk bwk family aku jln2 je. lame tak hangout same2. nk g mane ek? ni yg pening nih... huhu..... nnt la aku pikirkan. nk g lubuk yu, dah kena racun tikus plak. habes nk g mane ek? mari kite fikir...


*p/s: terus memikir~

im a girl~

im a girl
i have a beautiful heart
sensitive and soft
i miss my boogie so much
i want him back
i miss him so much..
T_T

he's cheerful
and when im sad, he make me happy
he is so cute and cheerful
he juz like a child to me..

miss you.. it been soo long to have sumone like you..
will we ever meet again? juz wait for me ok..
take care. kiss you and hug you..

biarkan saja

x perlu ku aku nk tambah byk2 lg kot. wpun ada byk gak yg nk ckp. tp biar je la tanam dlm hati. mkn la sendiri. tp mmg skg ni aku cam tak mo ckp lebih dan acting lebih .aku rasa cam kekok gak ar nk ckp. psl pe? sbb aku kecewa dgn statement die dan cara die skg. so, nk ckp lebih pun, dah terasa mcm org lain. tak sangka plak kuar sume tu dr mulut die. sedangkan aku pun tak pernah ar nk ckp dgn die mcm tu. jd langkah sewajarnya, adlh, jgn cite lebih2. cite yg mane patut je. too close but the feeling are faded. urm..bak kata die ar.
bile die dah ckp mcm tu, aku cam kecewa jgk ar. tak nmpk la tanda2 die sonok dgn pertunangan nih. jd pd pandangan aku bile aku baca blog die tu, cam klo tak tunang lg OK. bg aku ar..klo org len baca pun, mesti fikir mcm aku jgk. aku cam nk kawen lmbt ar. psl aku tak rasa kawen cepat tu solution. psl bile die bg statement mcm 'bile kite da dekat, tp jauh'.. aku fikir, klo kawen tu lg la dekat. so, nnt same je. klo dah time tunang ni pun die ckp mcm tu, apetah lg pas kawen. tu psl aku fikir2 blk, bek ar aku ckp dgn die hold dulu. aku taknak ade perasaan kesal dan kuar ayat 'or am i rushing?'.. tk tau la smpai bile aku akan ingt sume nih. maybe smpai bile2 agaknye. aku taknak, pas kawen nnt, kuar ayat cam mak tiri. mmg ar tak tangan2 kan. tp klo ckp yg pedih2, tak nak la aku. so aku bg masa utk die ubah la ckp2 tuh.. ayat die kasar. even aku pun dah tak ckp kasar. rasa mcm tak patut la. for now, aku remain steady ar. ape pun die nk buat, ikut die lah. bkn tak rajen nk komen dah. perasaan aku ni cam, ade doubt skit ar. cengitula.. doubt psl ape? aku sendiri tak tau.


*sory la.. even dah dpt tiket free tgk eclipse. wpun tgk eclipse, aku takde feeling pun masa tgk cite tu.btw, thanks.

i had a broken heart~

this is hurt.. today i cried loud. so many tragedy happen to me.
im so down.. juz now before mahgrib, i saw my kitten facing death.
i;ve promised him that i will get him to doctor. but i keep on delayed.
today before went to work, ive said, i will take you to veterinary tomorrow. coz im off day tomorrow.
but i was late. and im totally regret bout it.
his sickness is getting worst. juz now i came back to home. he look fine. but i juz dont realize, that he is totally sick. n hurt inside.
i am so sorry.. when that time, i saw he look at me...
i tell him to hold on. i'll bring you tommorow to clinic.
but death cant wait him anymore. they juz took of his life. and im regret.. keep in guilty..
im so sorry... i juz keep thinkin bout ur eyes.. i can see ur pain.. im so sorry.. i was late..
i was thinkin that i can keep you. but its not ur faith to be with us. we are sorry for not taking good care at you.. we are sorry..
rest in peace~

we love you memen~


i still cant rid out this guilty feel inside..

I need a Man~

I need a man, but do the man needs me?

the phone was on the desk? the phone was make to make call. i called.. do you call?

u r not happy lately... do you think that im happy lately?

im hurt by ur words, and im hurt by ur ego.



p/s: u are such a selfish man.

hari yg penuh dgn emosi~

punca dan penyebab utama... - trafik jam -
aku dah kua umh awal. seawal yg aku tak sangka. dan aku blh stuck dlm trafik @jln ipoh almost 1 hour. cam chilanat. coz supposeed aku dah blh smpai around 15minit perjalanan. tp drag smpai 1 jam. mmg cam harem. dan aku smpai je parking dah penuh... lg hareem.

punca kedua - aku mmg takde mood dan hangen -
punca ni mmg aku sendiri atau perasaan aku ibarat kapas yg melayang tanpa arah. so no doubt, aku mmg lost words, n tenang setenang air yg takde perasaan. so perasaan aku pada arini adlh--- takde perasaan -


punca ketiga - bos aku takde, dan die menyusahkan aku jgk -
ini terjadi apabila bos takde, dan anak murid die sibuk nk mencari die. pastu nyusah2kan nak2 murid ini.


punca keempat - pegawai hindu pempuan mengom -
ini punca paling mengetarakan lg amarah ku. mmg hangen satu bdn, bile die nk blame aku plak. asal lak? ko yg sakit migrane nk mati, ko dtg nk blame aku plak. ko yg suh aku set date, dan bile bos aku cannot make it and dont want to make it, ko nk kate aku tak inform ko awal. wei pompuan tua, ko dah nk jumpe big bos, takkan ko tak buat preparation? demm you..!aku hangen psl die nk hangen dgn aku psl aku tak bgtau die time tersebut. buat pe nk bgtau since bos pun takmo pegi. dan ko pun klo bos tak pegi, ko pun takmo pegi. such a dog... you are a DOG madam..!!!


punca kelima - aku tanye elok2, ko jwb nk hangen -
yg ni aku paling pantang. ko ko rasa nk cari gaduh, dan nk bikin gaduh... so, bring it on. jom kita gaduh skg.. ------>>>dush,dush...tumbuk2..tendang2...tampar2... tikam2...baling2...dush..dush..dush..<<---------- puas hati??? oh, nk lemparkan melalui kata2.. demm..menghiris kalbu siot.. demm u... --- skg hati aku rasa kebas2.. tak tau nk describe. ini je yg termampu.... sekian,terima kasih.-----

hak adoi~

ni la yg paling maleh melayan jantan2 nih. eee... rungsing kepala. tp da mmg wujudnya dua jantina ini, harus dilalui jgk. nk merungut pun tak blh. psl mmg kita manusia saling memerlukan sesama jantina. oh my... kuatkan hati ini melayan laki2 ini..eee... membebel mcm mak cik timah. plz lah... nk kuar ar jap. diorg ni membebel lg mcm bedah. rungsing dgn perangai2 jantan nih. mane2 jantan pun lah.. eeeeeee~ agaknye diorg pun same jgk berfikiran mcm kiteorg wanita2 nih. adoi.. (byk betul aku mengeluh) sbb dlm diri aku ni penuh keluh kesah melayan jantan2 nih. eeee... geram betul.. aku mmg GERAM beb! diorg ni klo g mane tgh2 mlm pun, tak sape nk perkosa mereka. ape diorg kesah. kami wanita ni yg mudah terancam. bosan..bosan.. buat la pe korang suka. pak cik bedah betul!