~ur not alone~

bella, don be so depressed n don feel alone~it will kill u~n u're not alone~i'm here for u~stop thinking bout the past~stat thingkin bout me~and keep it on~i will light u up~the way u light up my life~my little 'firefly'~i will always there for u~if u need shoulders to cry on~im here~i will tender u~cry as much as u can~let it out~tell me everthing bout u~shared wit me all ur fierce~coz i cares for u~n u deserves it~don do stupid stuff~appreciate my appearance even im new in ur life~if not, what am i standing rite next to u~don think about it anymore~let it go~don let it makes u down~keep on smiling dear~coz i will come to u wit lots of smile~hold on to me~i'll light up the gloomy 'firefly'~

dearly, thanks for being there for me~appreciate it so much~never thought that out there, still have sumone who really cares~and do cares bout me~am afraid of being losed~ n don wanna it happen again~ but i'm amazed by ur words~ u tendered me~n i feel calm when u rite by my side~ u need me as the way i need u~eventhough it still look blurry~ but u always convinced me~will u treat me rite? ~will u sacrifices for me the way he does?~will u appreaciate me?~

sis, don let it down u~ u still have dearly~forget bout the past~his nothing~if he cares, why do he have to do this to u~ juz forget bout it~ stat a new life wit sumthing new~ give dearly a chance to light up ur life~ give him a space~in ur life~ don hate the past~ coz u will hate urself~ losing is normal in our life~ each relationship, don always get along~take him as sweet memories~ that u will never forget~ apply it into ur new life~ this is part of ur life ~ appreciate wat had happen~ eventhough not now~ maybe 3-4 years will it be?~ ur faith has been written~ try to accept it~ maybe he's not the chosen one~ n the one n only for u is the one in front of ur eyes rite now?~ who knows~ appreciate who cares~ juz let the past go~ i know u can forget it~ u can, coz its up to u~ im still here for u~ u can count on me~ the way frens should be~

lil sis, thanks for being there for me~ appreciate so much~ i will try~ but i don know when the pain will cures~ it really killing me inside~ u know who i feel for the past~ i will never forget all the good memories~ its to deep inside me~ somehow, i have to let it go~ i juz don know y?~ questions keep on playing in my mind~ its not fair for me~ ive done nothing wrong~ it was so cruel~

my past, what makes u think when u dumped me~ why?~ coz of urself?~ how have we been along?~ 6 months?~ shit!~ u juz don know what is the meaning of appreaciation~ u don cares bout me~ if yes u do knows, u will not acting stupid~ i will try to accept the fact that we are not meant to be together~ rite now, it really hurts for me~ i know u don feel anything~ u've being so cruel~ u r not the one i knew~ u totally changed~ until i cant changed ur decission~ thanks for being wit me for these years~ u will always be inside me~ but somehow, i will try to get rid u of my life~ i will try living without u~ coz there's sumone out there who cares for me~ at that time, plz, don come back to me~

~depressed & alone~

all this time, ive never felt dis way~but lately, im so into dis feeling~alone n depressed~wat am i supposed to be next?~shall i find a bright future that has been made for me~shall i never be alone again~is there sumone outhere searching and needing~is there sumone who feel the same way, like i do~what's wrong wit me~i've done any wrong~but i've been dumped~by a stupid person who never knows about sacrifice and how to appreciate sumone who really cares~is it a karma~or my faith has been written~i've found u as a perfect person~but u let me down~n~u dumped me~without any notice~i was alone~i will try to forget all the good things and bad things dat we've done~but i cannot take it away from my heart~u always be wit me~hope u feel the same way too~u'r so cruel~until i cannot imagine~suddenly im lost~no guidance~but i will go thru~without u~from now on~n forever~thanks for being wit me once~i will bring along our memories wit me~n hope u will too~ i love u~

secretaries week luncheon ~kris dayanti

sedap sore die~

my face look pale.. shit!

he's not my type. fara push me to take pic wit him

last thursday, i've been invited to the secretary's week luncheon at quality hotel by our vendor. tak penah dpt peluang smbut hari setiausaha. once received the invitation, im so excited. thank God, my boss let me go. and i can bring along a fren. so, i bring fara. my close ofismate. on dat day, i have no idea wat to wear. and decided juz to put on a baju kurung purple color. fara, more glam than i. (sape pun ye jemputan ni?!! die plak yg glamour). and purple too. (da rasa mcm kembar siam plak!) arrived at bgnan matrade, da blur2. call bai (org yg bertanggungjawab menjemput aku) and she's polite and sweet. dpt tiket, daftar, dan goody bag mmg best.. berat nk mampos. sebelum nk masuk dewan, nmpk nyah.. tp tak layan.. masuk dwan, mmg crowded gile. ramai nye org.. table kiteorg jauh.. rupenya, kat dpn skali..wow... vip gitu. tak sangka... unbelievable... dekat dgn pentas.. nk ckp ape lg ha? mmg best gile.. dpt tempat duduk, jumpe ex senior. rupenye die pun dijemput jgk.. wakakaka... tp kesian, die sorang je. dr putrajaya, sanggup tu turun kl. pengacara die, Dee pon.... pandai la korang nk sambung...dpn table kiteorg, anuar zain.wakakaka... tp aku tak heran. sit next to me, sorang staff vendor yg kacak.. keh2... sepjg lunch itu aku mencover baik punye tingkah laku ku.. but, sumtimes terkuar gak gaya buruk. ces~bikin malu saje. tp yg frust, aku tak bwk balik hadiah cabutan bertuah... waaaaaaaaa! hadiah lucky draw mmg mantap sey... rantai rafflesia, aku nk... tilam king koil~aku nk... kain jakel yg harga beribu~ aku nk... tv~aku nk...~tp tak dpt.. uwaaaakk...sib fara tak dpt. klo die dpt, bengang gak aku.. overall, mmg best sgt and thanks to bai for inviting me. klo tak kerana die, mmg aku tak merasa. esok, turn datuk siti wat persembahan.. kecewa nye kerana aku tak dpt join.. huhu... btw, gambar aku dgn fara ade dlm paper utusan. terselit. wakakakakaka....~

why airasia...?

wa rasa nk geget je monitor ni.. pasal bile wa nk booking for 6 persons ke kota kinabalu, die up 50rm. bile wa mau book for 2 persons murah plak. whether book wit hotel atau flight, same je.. klo lebih, mesti up.. warh..wa sudah excited mau pi sana. skali die lain harga. wa sudah pening pale.. nk cuti lame lg.. wa terpaksa book awal coz klo lmbat itu airasia lagi mau up++++ itu tiket. sha, wa mau g sane.. lu tolong cari harga paling murah... plz sha, plz......

kualiti, 5S...

merujuk kepada perkara diatas..


esok aku kena dtg ofis juz nak kemas bilik dan ruang pejabat ofis ni. aku pun tak tau ape motif dey all.. aku rasa ofis ni da cukup ok dah.. klo nk sume cantik, pindah pejabat baru la. itu pun ade few staff yg kate tmpt aku ni tak berkemas2. aku nk kemas mcm mane lg? diorg bg idea skit.. mcm mane nk kemas, asal g mesy, bwk balik paper simpan kat tmpt aku. mcm bilik aku ni bilik fail dan mcm aku plak yg g mesy. bos aku g mesy pun pandai simpan meeting paper sendiri dlm bilik die. aku tak paham la dgn sesetengah officer ni. high educated, but less management skills. tak reti mengurus... no wonder la serebeh je.. geram aku. ikutkan, juz important document saja yg perlu disimpan dlm file ni, but diorg ni sume kertas nk simpan. skrg ni aku nk buang sume.. bile diorg kate kat aku, aku ckp tak terima. bkn takde softcopy, simpan la dlm komputer.. bengang sey.. dan, tmpt aku ni fail sulit, mane blh menayangkan ape yg ade dlm kabinet. but this dumb officer yg tak tau ape, nk kondem aku plak.. pasal aku tak tmpl ape2 dlm file. oi makcik! file tu sulit, mane blh display ape yg ade kt dlm. ko pegi kursus fail. ba..! janji aku senang nk cari. klo korang rasa utk kesenangan korang, buat la satu file projek, simpan dlm bilik. jgn menyusahkan org lain. plz la... grow up! jgn body dan usia je, but ur mentality tu.. plz la... lg satu, kecoh nk mengemas time ofis hour. kuar beli barang time keje, bile bos mencari aku yg meraban nk bg excuse kat bos. nk buat alasan korang gi mane. f*x la..! nnt klo audit dtg query pasal aku nye bilik file, aku kabo kan yg korang minta wat display ape yg ade kat dlm tu. senang je.. point kat org lain.. huh! diorg ni da beso, tp mental mcm budak kecik. kat dlm ofis aku ni pun da mcm kedai bunga. klo korang nk beli bunga blh la dtg ofis aku ni ha.. nk posing2 ke.. time keja plak tu diorg buat.. company dtg, wat malu je... kelam kabut. keje mcm ni, laju je nk buat... klo keje yg sepatutnye tu, lembab mcm siput babi!

thinking of him...

i think...,

you...

i think...,

i miss you...

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i've lost my dafi

baru terfikir nk cite pasal hal ni. coz im givin my respect to my Dafi. x tau ape yg menyebabkan beliau mati. tiap2 hari aku tgk mkn laju je.. rindunye kat dafi.. tak smpai hati nk cari yg lain. balik2 je, ibu kate dafi da tiada.. sedihnye hati ni... baru fikir nk cari pasangan utk die. rindunye kat dafi. sangkar die sume da kemas2, dan keesokkannye ibu tanam. tak dpt nk bg perhatian sepenuhnya kat die, sbb kursus. hurm... sedih2... rasa serik nk nk bela lg.. huk2... tp nak jgk... tunggu la.

miss u so much.. thanks for being my wonderpet for a month

kenangan daku buat dirimu searakian

bermulanya satu pengembaraan

keep moving forward



tugu negara

apa? naik ke atas?

kan I da ckp, KF hensem orgnye

we're the team.. miss u all lah


b4 going back, snap utk kenangan...

arini baru aku dpt jejak kaki ke pejabat. almost 3 weeks aku berkursus. utk confirm beb. ingt senang ke? induksi? suxs.. attendt kelas, balik kelas.. tp best la.. byk hal2 pentadbiran yg aku tak tau, jd tau. pas induksi, go for BTN. first impression, hate it so much.! but actually, best bangat. till now, aku rasa nk attend btn je.. rindu aku kat sume org. my group, fasi aku, ketua fasi..and others i meet. windu la.. aku suke dgn en dollah bercerita. masuk LDK tak boring. bersemangat ada lagi. he's the person yg build up my patriotisme! rugi tak pegi beb. tp aku berterima kasih kerana dpt fasi mcm en dollah. tak sempat nk bergambar dgn die. sbb dlm kelas tak blh bwk digital equip. cume tu la, masa tu kelam kabut skit. tak cukup rehat. smpai aku balik pun sakit2 ni. whole week kat sane, aku batuk2. tp dgn semangat yg waja, tiap kelas aku tak pernah miss. best woo g btn. bertambah semangat bile KF tu hensem plak. tgk tak kelip mata.. muahahaha... no wonder aku tak ngantuk tiap kali die ckp. wakakaka... tp yg paling penting, ape yg aku dpt masa kursus btn, sgt bermakna. cerita mengenai asal usul kite. di mana letaknya diri kite yg sebenarnya.. sesiapa yg bernama melayu, baca lah sejarah.. aku rasa nk nangis je ni.. sadisnye.. sayangi lah negara kite ni. jgn kite jadi seperti negara di luar sane yg porak peranda. (T_T)...

hari terakhir sebelum pulang, ade test.. tak sangka plak. jawab je la. then g kembara.. tgh hari buta suruh kiteorg g redah jln. gile ar.. tp best.. kem kiteorg tepi pantai.. lalu2, jalan2 kg... tenang sgt... smpai tepi pantai..syoknye... tenang sgt.... dan paling penting, posed! few picts yg sempat aku snap. ekekeke....

*p/s: buat teman2, aku rindu sgt kat korang. perjumpaan yg wpun sekejap aku rasa sunggu bermakna dan ingt smpai bile2.. en dollah pun aku rindu jgk... aku rindu suasana di kem warisan sembilang... RINDUUUUUUUUUUU........................